Unlighted Thoughts

Muloi saai ukhah ti louteu ,  mukht morom biringi uthisil. akuwali luwar vabonai khihoron tulisil. Janusa bukur majot kusi musi khumai muk koi pelaboloi baidhho kore. Premor mousindramot titi buri fura ejoni bauli othoso , okhoijjo hridoi priyakhiye soudikhor pora abodho korisil. Mur ukhah ti hoi khojibotar bul d goisil. Khemeka daawor rodabole jn essati puhor khei onuvob. Nilim uka sadorot jn niyor fool bosa,  unmaad joubona sawoniye mur spondon karhi nisil.... Moiu tu ahori bisora nasilu....oin kiba vabibole....

Onuvuti bur morhoi jabo khujisil. Hothate kio janu savabik hoisilu, nijoke uti vahi jabo disilu... Bohut kiba kibi a koi pelaisil. Kunudine kotha hua nasil tothapi. Kiba jn ek Nisha hoi uthisil , khei sawoni. Dinbur kromat suti hoi ahibo dhorisil....aru raati bur...nikhasor pranir boikhisto val koi a buji uthisilu. Raati bure ek bikhekh ortho bohon kore.rodor premik pokhiti a junor saat a preyokhik loi binaai. Raati ei tu chanchalatar nisha buror ujaan aane. Mon mogojur prithokota anguliabo kothin hoi pore.  kio janu osposto vabona burot junor puhor sitike ....ovimanor birina jn sesa kuolit jupupka lage. Khorolota khei sawonir ek obisinno ongo ....mur ovimaan a kio janu khei sawonir abeg subo pora nasil...ospoto hahi burot mur nirjonotar khohoje poton ghotisil. Akhoktto hoboloi baat sua nasilu. Patoni melisilu .... notun khopun...notun khihoron. Notun hbo sesta nokorau tu nohoi....hahi buror prai a nokol koribo sesta korisilu...ongi vongi bur moi kholoni korisilu.. kesa godh...

Once i dreamt about you tried to figure out your feelings. It all started with a gaze. I knew i will ruin everything. That's why i didn't say it to you. Moments that we shared together Were only about eye contacts. I felt your feelings though. Excitements. Possibilities. I dreamt about future.... Telling myself ," Hey. stuck with her.  She is the one for you." And it worked. At least for some time.

I won't let my wound  heal It will remind me your smile. I won't let my soul die It will keep your thoughts alive. I won't come in your dreams It will help you erasing me out.

Moi just lucky feel koru...okoman khomoi or babe holeu, moi teurei hoi asilu..teu muk khomoi disil. hepah poluai  muk mone mone saisil. Khei bikhekh muhurto buror khuoroni a mon tu jipal kori tule... Aji teu nai jodiu moi dukh onuvob nokoru..teur onuvob or khannidhoi asil tene prithok...jiye teur onupsthititu teurei hoi thokar hepah guji d jai.. Khomoi or dholot teu hoitu mur pora vale khini a atori gol...aru moi. moi puroni khei dinburote thomoki rolu. teur hahi..aru modhur madokota bur jukiyai sau.protitu hahire utkho hoboloi moi kimn j jotno korisilu...teu hoitu uman a pua nasil.

কেচা গধুলিৰ জোনাকৰ নিমাও-মাও নিৰিবিলিত ,এটি স্তব্ধ মুহূৰ্তৰ কিছু শিহৰিত অনুভূতি  চৌদিশে সিচৰিত হয়। ভাষাবোৰ যেন ভাৱৰ অনুচৰ। সেই অনুভূতিগাল কিছু মৰম, কিছু লাজ, অলপ হাঁহি আৰু অভিমানৰ মিশ্ৰণ। হয়টো খুলি কব নোৱাৰিম, কিন্তু এমুঠি অনুভৱৰ অনুমান নিশ্চয় জাচিব পাৰিম। আঘোণৰ  বহল পথাৰৰ পচোৱা জাকত অজানিতে মোৰ সকলো মিলি গল।  দোমোজাত মই অৱশ হৈ পৰিছো। হাঁহিবোৰও এতিয়া  উচুপি উঠে!  দূখত থকাটোও যেন মোৰ বাবে এটা নিচা হৈ পৰিছে । অপেক্ষা, দোমোজাৰ গভীৰতা, অসফলতা আৰু আধৰুৱা স্মৃতি । এয়াই  ভালপোৱা। অনুভূতিৰ লগত কঢ়া দুখোজেই সকলো।